I guess it happened when I was in Las Vegas.
I really needed a break, more than I ever realized.
But I had a bit if an epiphany.
And I actually feel better and I am so much more relaxed.
What was it?
I finally realized that I cannot fight Crazyfriend and her sleazy smarmy boyfriend anymore.
I cannot fight his influence over her, no matter how negative it is.
He has sucked her down into the black hole of his universe and she has been a willing participant.
I can't fight it and I can't live with the cognitive dissonance that she is trying to balance.
I can't pretend that everything is "okay" because it's not.
So I have given up even trying to fight this.
And y'know what??
I feel so much better.
I will be polite.
I will be available.
I won't be angry.
I won't be frustrated.
He is her problem.
She owns it, not me.
Gee..I feel soooo much better.