Friday, June 5, 2009

Epiphany

I guess it happened when I was in Las Vegas.
I really needed a break, more than I ever realized.
But I had a bit if an epiphany.
And I actually feel better and I am so much more relaxed.
What was it?
I finally realized that I cannot fight Crazyfriend and her sleazy smarmy boyfriend anymore.
I cannot fight his influence over her, no matter how negative it is.
He has sucked her down into the black hole of his universe and she has been a willing participant.
I can't fight it and I can't live with the cognitive dissonance that she is trying to balance.
I can't pretend that everything is "okay" because it's not.
So I have given up even trying to fight this.
And y'know what??
I feel so much better.
I will be polite.
I will be available.
I won't be angry.
I won't be frustrated.
He is her problem.
She owns it, not me.
Gee..I feel soooo much better.

3 comments:

garnett109 said...

hope your trip was a great one

City Girl said...

good for you. it is waaay too easy to get sucked into someone else's drama.

Governor Jen said...

Congratulations. It sounds like you've finally made some peace with it all.